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So I’m letting go. To all the emotional baggage. To all the what ifs or could have beens. Mr. Almost or Not Quite Right. Even the Nice but Not for Me. It’s starting with all the letters and cards. Words can be well-meaning and pleasant to the ear, but I need the real thing. And I deserve it too. I’m not perfect, but I know I have a lot to offer the right person. But I don’t want anyone having a piece of my heart who’s no longer in my life. It doesn’t leave a place for him — the man waiting to truly love me, flaws, quirks and all. He is on his way and I don’t have the luxury of wasting time. I’m never been about games and playtime is so over. Ladies we know how we can be. Maybe you run into an old flame at the movies or at a concert. And you think, “Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I should give it another try.” I drove down that street and sometimes that works out, but most times a relationship ends for very real and immovable reasons. So dreaming of happy endings with a past love ends up being just that — a dream. Call it a purge or a detox, but it’s what I need to do right now. I can’t make personal headway with the past weighing me down.

Somewhere inside I think the letters and cards were still affirming me even though the men were not actually in my life anymore. Some of them were not even boyfriends. They were just guys that had a crush on me. I’ve entered a new phase in my life. I prayed for a move in my life in areas that were stagnant and now there’s been a unique shift in my circumstances. It’s exhilarating and sometimes nerve-racking at the same time. That’s change for you. Where I’m moving I need to be lighter, more nimble and have clarity for my next steps. I know I’m not the only one. If you’re ready to move forward in life, it’s time to show remnants of the past the door.